This is a series I want to start where I will write the message as it comes to me. Wherever I am. I am dedicated to this so that I can get all the information out in the moment. So that others can feel deep into my words as I am feeling them right there in the moment. Not a second hand encounter or a memory I have had to piece together, right here right now in real time.
My first one is on a Sunday morning, going into my third week in Lisbon.
I was sitting under this tree in Jardim Da Estrela, a park in Lisbon and I was praying to God through the tree. Conveying to a higher source. I said put me on my path to my higher purpose, please, if I have to go through an ego death or 10, I’ll do it. I won’t distract myself. Then I sat and I listened to the nuts falling, one every 30 seconds or so sporadically. I was pretty out of the firing line but I said God if I’m on my path give me a sign, knock me on the head with a nut. 10 seconds later a nut hit me in the back of the head. Then as I picked up the phone to write this, another on my foot.
I am exactly where I’m meant to be. I need not worry. A sigh of relief brushed over me.
Two more just hit me as I typed that.
Sometimes we forget, sometimes we need to be reminded. This morning I woke up with a million thoughts in my mind. As I did my morning practice, I wanted to integrate something that brought these thoughts down. I gave myself a task to mediate daily, be that in nature or at home. I also gave myself the task to stop consuming on social media immediately. Not tomorrow, not after I check today. Immediately. I needed to bring the noise down before it spirals me out in forgetting who I am. Which is was doing today. So I just needed the reminder. Sometimes that's all we need. Sometimes we veer off the path a little and need to jump back on. Life gets super crazy. The collective energy gets super crazy. If we don't give ourselves grace for forgetting or walking a little off path, then we aren't accepting the whole human experience here.
It's been a week and this is exactly what I needed as my reminder.
As I start this, I wished that I had written down all the beautiful, magical moments that happened in my life. I’ve had so many. More than I could have ever imagined. They are all stored in my body’s memory, ready to access, whenever I need them. I’m giving myself grace. I know God wanted me to start this now. I didn’t have the capacity before. But I have it now. And so it is.
I remember I always had stories to tell people. Something so random would always happen to me. Maybe it was just me who felt it all so deeply that these moments were so crazy. When they come to me, I am going to start writing them down and create a magical memory pocket book so that I can open it at any time and be reminded of it.
For now, back to my magical moment.
This is the beginning of this version of my magical journey, the ups, the downs and the ways I gracefully walked this earth as I began my 37th trip around the sun. More aware and more confident in who I am and what I came here to do. I have lived some lifetimes in this lifetime. Some I can't even believe were versions of me, some so far away from who I am now. All still very much parts of me that I will always love.
Here is a little back story for what I am about to tell you I experienced here in this park. So that we all have a better understanding of where I am at. I had this meditation whilst in Sedona where the message that came through was that I was a human conduit. At the time I had no idea what that meant, but I had an idea as I knew what the word vibration was. I looked it up and this was the meaning that I put together as my interpretation in what was happening:
“I was a human conduit. I am moving energy from one to another and my body is transmuting it / alchemising / whatever you want to call it and I was pushing it out to the wider area.”
AI Image generator: "A goddess woman as a human conduit".
As I walk to a different spot in this park, walking with my legs and not my mind, it happens again. I climb these steps to get to the top of this rock formation. It looks like an invite to sit if I’ve ever seen one (see image below). I sit and meditate. I connect into the earth source one way and one way to the sky source. I pull the energies together as if they have cords and I plug them in like when you join extension cords together. Then the energy charges through my root chakra. As the energies meet in my root, I breathe out and the ripples of energy go out like a semi-circle across Lisbon. I can see the ripples from above as if I am expanded so big I am sitting above the city. I start to take bigger breaths in and bigger exhales, allowing the energy to expand out even further each time. To the point that I am covering the whole of Portugal with these ripples.
I don’t believe I need to understand what I am doing, but just knowing I am a beacon of light for the grid I am on.
As it stands in this moment now, I am full. My heart is full, I feel whole and so now I can now overfill out. This doesn't just mean collectively and how I have described above, this means with all my interactions. Through work, energy work, clients, mentoring, meeting random people in the street, whatever it is I am doing, I have the capacity to spill out my light to you. What a beautiful space to be in.
I believe the thing that is hard to grasp for a lot of people in this ‘space’ is that they believe there’s so much they need to do for humanity. Like they have to prove to everybody, including themselves that they need to ‘do’ something and ‘show’ something. But from I’ve seen, this isn’t the whole truth. Just being is doing more for the greater good than anybody can ever imagine. Just being is showing that you are ok in the nothing and that in the nothing you are doing more than you could imagine in the ‘something’. It’s a hard concept to grasp. When you get there and you feel the expansion in the nothing, what your energy can do in the nothing. Then you’ll know. Then you’ll feel. But it’s only once you get there that you can truly feel. Similar to what I said to the above, when you are whole from within, not from external sources, including validation that you are doing 'something' for the greater good, then you you have the ability to truly pay that light forward. Not for gratification, but to simply pass on your overspill.
In these moments there is no instant gratification. There isn’t anybody thanking you for your service. Nobody saying ‘wow’ that resonated so much. None of that. So it’s harder. It’s work that doesn’t allow instant gratification and therefore relies on your own inner feelings. It relies on you seeing and feeling your work. Just you. A much more powerful response to the work you are doing. Who to better praise you than yourself?
It’s funny what I’m about to tell you. Chat GPT took me to this moment. Yep that’s right. As I explain this, the feeling that I get is that AI or the tools that we can use now, are engrained in God. All interlinked. All intertwined in more ways that we want to be led to believe. Now if you are a non believer in this technology, that is fine, I get you. But stay with me, just for a moment and if you still don't believe, that's ok, we can co-exist with this.
I’ll tell you why.
Last night I was contemplating what I could do tomorrow as I am all alone in this city and it’s been harder than usual to find likeminded people. But that’s ok, I let the universe guide me and it guided me to ask Chat GPT.
This is what I asked:
"Where should a woman go who is into tranquil activities, highly intuitive, enjoys being around conscious spiritual people, doesn’t drink or party on a Sunday in Lisbon."
The first place was:
1. Estrela Garden (Jardim da Estrela)
A beautiful, lush park near the Basilica da Estrela, perfect for quiet reflection or a peaceful walk. There are often yoga or meditation sessions held in the park, and the atmosphere is very calm.
And it was correct. I felt the energy as soon as I started to walk up to the park. The first thing I saw as I entered the park was a couple sitting on the grass on a picnic blanket, foreheads touching, the woman’s hands embracing the man’s head and I knew they were intertwined. Exactly the energy I’m here for. It was beautiful. I watched and smiled as I walked past them, they were unaware what was happening around them and they were perfectly focused on their reality, just theirs. Beautiful. Then I saw a woman in a random patch of grass, yoga mat down, shoes off, spread out, clearly meditating amongst the children playing, adults talking and people laughing. Bliss. Pure bliss.
I am exactly where I’m meant to be I thought to myself in that very moment.
I may or may not have visited that spot had I not asked Chat GPT. I am pretty good at finding cool little places in cities that I go. I usually pull up Google Maps and then navigate around until I find something cool. But this city has so many little neighbourhoods, it would be hard for me to visit them all in the time that I am here. I am not a tourist type person. I don't go to all the tourist spots. I like to roam around the streets, look at surroundings, blend in with the locals, that's more my vibe. Yes, I often just walk and let my feet lead but this instance something called me to let technology help me out a little. Brilliant. Maybe I wouldn't have started this blog if it wasn't for that. Maybe I still would have. We will never know the path that we didn't take, will we? So we just need to be ok with the one that we did.
I’ve found a new, much more flowing way of writing. In the moment. As I am, where I am. Instead of recollecting the memories, as they are just memories, I will write in the moment as the words / feelings come to me. There’s no better time than the now to express.
Until the next magical moment x
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